A beautiful, vibrant and surprising memoir about love, desire and marriage . . . one question at a time. What if you gave yourself permission to want more – from love, from life, from yourself?

Deepa Paul rises from her boyfriend’s bed in the early hours of dawn. She gets dressed, slips away with a kiss and cycles home where she is welcomed lovingly by her husband. There isn’t a glimmer of shame, deception or guilt, only the honesty and compassion needed to make this kind of life possible — even if it wasn’t always this easy.

Whose idea was it? What are the rules? Are you ever jealous? Deepa answers these questions openly and tenderly, as she seeks the truths that so many of us want to discover. Can I ask for what I want? Do I deserve it? Is it worth it?

Unexpectedly relatable and joyfully vibrant, this is one woman’s manifesto of becoming, of desire and of identity. This is a memoir that says: you’re allowed to want more.